Inevitability

Dear Psychiatrist ,

Oh Inevitability why are you here
A Life , a product of complexity and fears
Bundled in hopes of plastic joy
To fall many a times seeking a ride
oh Inevitability why are you here

Let me fool you another day
till I run out of everyday

oh Inevitability why are you here

A sheep among sheep
pushing my pockets till I can touch my own feet

alas I can only run ,
till I leave the herd under the sun

oh Inevitability why are you here

I am not there. I did not die.

Dear Psychiatrist ,

When I die recite this ...

Do not stand at my grave and weep;

I am not there, I do not sleep

I am a thousand winds that blow.

I am the diamond glints on snow.

I am the sunlight on ripened grain.

I am the gentle autumn rain.

When you awaken in the morning's hush

I am the swift uplifting rush

Of quiet birds in circled flight.

I am the soft stars that shine at night.

Do not stand at my grave and cry;

I am not there. I did not die.

Plagiarising George Steiner

Dear Psychiatrist ,

To have one door closed will not only be cowardice but a betrayal towards an ability to glimpse beyond the existence I have created through my limited comprehension. Amidst the impressions of reality, I sometimes find hope .A hope to create.A hope to change what has been accepted.A hope to find myself one day in the viscosity of focus.A focus, a thought, an idea so pure that I might find a purpose.In this search I have crawled though the mistakes of my past , the myopic decisions of my present and through the fear of my future.My irrelevance in this universe intimidates my belief. But my understanding of this irrelevance fuels my intension.With the pieces I have borrowed from us. I will find my way towards an identity so unique that it will shatter every doubt we ever had in ourselves.I am human – A work in progress.Maybe I am delusioned and maybe your understanding of this existence precedes that of mine .So I ask you to teach me what you have learnt.To tell me that I am wrong.To tell me that I am a fool.So that one day I might open the doors towards our truth .